Masturbation Challenge – Day 3 (Rd. 2) Defining the Edge
/- Date: 5/3/16
- Time: 11:43PM
- Location: Bedroom
- Duration: 13:15
- # of Edges (Nearly climaxing and then backing away): 5
- Pass/Fail: PASS
Like the aspiring Buddhist that I am, I set an intention for my masturbation practice: stay present and become acquainted with the most subtle of sensations. I did this for several minutes. It was quite boring. Shaking my dick just doesn't feel nearly as good as climaxing or having sex. I experimented with various masturbation techniques, still no luck. At a certain point, I was convinced that I would have to start picturing women in my mind's eye in order to reach my edge. But then, out of nowhere, a subtle sensation grew at my root chakra! I held onto the sensation because I knew it could lead me out of the doldrums. Sure enough, I was soon hitting my edge without having to fantasize about women. I was focused solely on my bodily sensations! I could feel myself pulling back way before the finish line because I was very scared about having to restart the challenge. However, I told myself not to fear failure and pushed myself closer to the edge. Eventually I got to a point where I knew that if I went any further, I would completely lose control. That was it! That was the edge! Another day safe! Only 18 to go!
